How are you?
I hope you are doing amazing.
I’ve had a lot going on this week.
And I wanted to be intimate and personal here in my email list.. before it goes to social media in a few weeks or months.
This week was tender.
It was sore.
It was awakening.
And it had me trust even deeper in God.
It had me surrender that this life has a plan for us beyond what we can imagine.
It had me pray to God in ways that I’d never felt so connected, seen, heard, and felt.
It had me cry deeply and it had me laugh incredibly hard.
As I’m sitting here writing this.
Part of me is still shocked and part of me is deeply grateful.
This week I became single again in my heart, in my mind, and in my body.
Now I am deeply saddened and there is not doubt in my mind that after 18 months of
Listening to someone, growing with someone
Being reliable to someone
Growing through many conflicts
Doing nothing together which meant everything to me
Doing many things together gave me so much joy
Getting involved in each other's businesses
Practicing open-relationship which is something I deeply desired and learned from
The desire to always yearn to be around them
Cultivating habits together
To part ways from them for a day or weeks and feel an emotional wave of sadness because of how deeply you craved to be with this person
Intimacy beyond what I could have ever dreamed or asked for
Falling deeply into love
Me learning to be more submissive and enjoying it
Taking care of a man and loving it
Being held in the most protective and thoughtful ways
Being listened to… and Him learning to deeply see me.